Being in Spokane, there are way too many emotions and memories being drudged up. My time here overall was good, but memories of James and the overwhelming loneliness that this city can remind me of are just very draining for me. I'm trying to recall the good times with all my friends, but there's still this dark presence hovering over this place. It makes me feel like I'm moving through tar when I walk around- if that makes any sense. It's like I'm wading through all of the baggage I left here when I moved away over a year ago. It seems like 5 years ago, I can't believe I lived here last June.
So here is an outfit from home, my last outfit shoot that I did in Anchorage, actually. I do miss home, probably more-so because being in Spokane reminds me of when I desperately wanted to move home and be with family, among people who loved me completely. As much as I am glad that I can take advantage of my alma mater and print in a state-of-the-art printmaking shop, I can't help but feel trapped here again. Perhaps it was too soon to return, but I suppose it's all part of a healing process. It will make the trip to Tacoma all that much more sweet, I suppose! My friend Brad is coming into Spokane this weekend though, so I kind of want to stay here to see him again before I'm off to places unknown. Well, I suppose whatever will be, will be.
boots/lulu e. bebe :: scarf/from tieka :: glasses/wet seal
Today I spent the day printing. I was nervous, having not actually printed in over a year, but once I got into it, it all came back to me. Hopefully it'll come out well. I've got two layers down so far and I'm planning on doing two more tomorrow, then the final layer on Friday. I have 40 prints right now, but not all of them will turn out, so we'll see how big the final edition ends up being.
I have to say, printing is one thing that I just adore. I just feel so at home with a screen and ink, barefoot and hair piled atop my head. I love the ink caked on my fingers. I should buy a trailer to drag behind the Brave and convert the interior into a mobile printshop. Ugh, so awesome. Oh, by the way, I will be offering the edition of prints for sale once they are all done! It's the same print as on the totes, except this time it's hand printed by yours truly! And I'm contemplating printing the sun in metallic gold and/or making it gold leaf. Maybe just for a few of them. A special edition, perhaps? I'm so thrilled about it all.
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Great shots I loved how you layed them out! Very modern feel :)
Hope the rest of your stay in Spokane is better!
xoxo, jaz
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I love the polka dots! The whole outfit is great. :)
Sorry you're dealing with those feelings right now. I guess I can relate since I went through something similar when I came back from Alaska. :/
I'm sure your prints will turn out amazing. :D
:o)Sarah
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awesome tights!
It's amazing how a place can bring back so many memories for us, even bad ones. I hope you can come to terms with everything that happened in Spokane and how you felt about it sometime soon, but I do understand why it weighing you down so much. I think getting back on the road will help you get out of that mindset though.
Wow! I love these Pictures. And of course your stunning Outfit!:) Love your dotted dress. Fits you very well. xx, Alice from bells and whistles.
I completely get what you're saying about walking in 'tar.' Spokane is for you what Ypsilanti is for me.
I really love this look! amazing dress!
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I love your outfit very mini mouse esque with the polka dot dress <3
Can't wait to see your prints, i'm sure they will be beautiful xoxo
Love the outfit! I'm sorry to hear you're having a bit of a tough time there, but I think that even being willing to go there shows how far you've come. That alone is a big milestone.
Ana
Can't wait to see your prints! Glad you are doing something you love!
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Love your outfit! cant wait to see the prints!
Hi, I wanted to introduce myself, Im just starting into the blog world, but I discovered your blog awhile ago from my friend Second Skin. I just wanted to tell you I love your blog and Im a huge fan of the Brave!! I'm actually in the process of restoring a 66' shasta but I have loved Braves for a long time. Someday I will be searching for one....... Sorry I could talk about them for days! Anyhow,maybe this will brighten your day, you have so much going for you dont forget that!
I can't wait to see the prints! Have the best fun making them, I can totally imagine you in a workshop covered in paint and blissfully happy! :) Concentrate on the best parts of your future and enjoy all the great things you do! (And blog about them, preferably! :D)
You should just design bags and tshirts as a career. Hehe. I would buy your stuff! That's awesome.
Sorry about Spokane. I think you're the closest a blogger has ever geographically been to me. I'm in Missoula. So...200 miles away. Haha! It's like knowing a celebrity is near. Definitely weird.
Great outfit girl! The black and red look so amazing together. And your boots are fabulous.
Sounds like Spokane is a bittersweet place to you. Hoping your friend coming to visit and getting to do all the printing will make it all a little better. Can't wait to see how the prints turn out!
Trips down memory lane are always bittersweet! Can't wait to see your finished product!
I'm also loving the red dress! I'm really excited to start seeing more red this fall :)
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Those tights are amazing! I think they'd make any outfit look more retro. and the printmaking studio sounds amazing! I'm really looking forward to seeing the prints. :)
I moved back home after being away for college for four years, and now that I'm here...certain roads "haunt" me. Memories, flashbacks, and overall feelings creep back to me, and I absolutely hate it.
Just know that you're not there forever, you realize these feelings, learn from them, and move on. You're traveling the country, girl! Don't let the past bother you.
I love you're wearing the Modcloth dress that was featured months ago as a "You Name It." You look beautiful, and so do your print (god bless twitter). Hang in there, sugar. Enjoy the little things.
I am a sucker for polka dots! You have been an inspiration for me, especially with the whole pattern mixing, since you are the queen of it! Hope your whole trip in the Brave is AMAZING.
hey i just moved to canada and i've been looking for bloggers from here too. glad i've stumbled across your blog through chictopia :) following you now :) hope you can visit my blog soon too X
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loving the boots and the polka!
You look great! Sorry about your bad memories : /
I can't wait to see the prints! Is there a way I could reserve one? I'd looooooove to buy one from you. :)
Don't waste another minute, second of your time thinking about that boy. You are so much more than that. Digging the dots girl.
I know exactly what you mean about certain places dredging up difficult memories, but you are definitely right that it's part of the healing process.
I love the prints and I really hope I can get one when you offer up the editions! I'll be keeping my eyes out for them!
It's funny I have the same torn feelings when I go back to Spokane, over the past. But, I think you're right to just read it as part of the healing process, that's what I did.
I didnt know you did printing! ive always been interested in this but never gotten a chance to try in at college! cant wait to see the final products! do you print on paper or fabric? cant wait to hear more :) x
you look great! it's easy to feel trapped in a place where you have mixed emotions. best of luck with the print making
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Oh.. you get me reminiscing about the darkroom I practically lived in at uni. I haven't been back in three years though I know I really should visit.
Have fun on the weekend!
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