You know how when you're about to do something exciting, but you're stuck doing something really lame? Like when you're about to go on a great spring break trip, but you've got hella midterms to deal with for a week or two. That's kind of where I'm at right now. Work is pretty much unbearable at times, but I'm trying to push through to the other side. Unfortunately all the pent up anxiety and stress from having to sit in a place I loathe for 10 hours a day has caused me to become a kind of hermit. Yesterday I couldn't even go home after work, I had to escape for a bit. It was nice, I went out to beluga point (which is where I was in the bottom two pictures of this post), climbed around on the rocks and decompressed. I get so tightly wound at work, that by the end of the day I'm kind of exhausted from just existing! Lame, I know. It's just the sum of all the stupid things that go on there. Yesterday we had our weekly "art meeting" which is kind of like Dante's 5th circle of hell, and then the printer decided it didn't want to work for 90% of the day.. among other sundry annoyances.
leggings/forever 21 :: cardigan/target :: top/diy :: scarf/hand me down
I've been living in this outfit for the past few days. I've rediscovered leggings as a pants alternative. I realize this is probably a major fashion don't in many people's rule book, but they just make it so comfortable to sit at a desk for 10 hours a day. It was raining again today, so I'm not sure you can call these "outfit shots"... more like awkward photobooth pictures of my ass trying to sneak its way into pictures via my mirror.
Well, anyway, I did eventually go home because my mom made a delicious dinner and I felt bad for making everyone wait. The rest of my family went and saw "The Other Guys" but I abstained in order to stay at home, read, watch House, and have alone time.
I'm actually having a lot of trouble reconciling trying to have relationships with people (especially making friends- meaning interacting with strangers) while being a relative introvert who thrives off of alone time. This is one of those not-quite-fully-formed things that's going on in my brain. I kind of feel like I'm going to implode if I don't have alone time, but then again, I haven't been very social since I left school so I'm pretty out of practice. It's not that I can't be social... maybe it's just so foreign right now that it's hard for me to fathom. Eh, I'm not that concerned about it, just random thoughts floating around the ol' grey matter.
Good News? It's Wednesday!!
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Hey,
Just dropping by to thank you very very much. I have a way clearer idea of what camera I'll be shopping for.
So thanks again.
And have a nice day~
haha - I've rediscovered leggings too but in denim form. They are so comfy without feeling too dated. I adore them. :)
Bre @ http://theredbungalow.blogspot.com
I literally laughed out loud when you mentioned your butt sneaking into the pictures--you're right! So funny :)
Looking adorable as always and I feel you on the leggings. I can't wait for Autumn here in Sacramento.
hey pretty girl, keep your chin up! i know that's easier said than done...i was in your position not so long ago (at the beginning of june and about 6 months prior to that) i was working a job where i was sitting down answering calls for 9 hours a day and it was absolute hell, i haaaaated it...and then i went on stress leave and i'm feeling much better! i start school in september and am excited about that so that's like my little trip at the end of something horrible (that and i've had the luxury of having the summer off) anyway, things work out! just keep your eye on the prize ;)
ah leggings as pants...seriously, what did they expect? they made a comfier, more stylish/acceptable version of sweatpants and they want us to NOT wear them all the time? uhh...no. give me stretchy pants or give me death.
I wish I could have some alone time. Five roommates is making that an impossibility though. Sigh. Enjoy your quiet time. It's precious.
Betty Noir
I love leggins too..they the most comfy thing ever!
Good luck with your work. Just bare with them for a while and then you're going on the trip and everything will be fine :)
Keep the good spirit alive, hehe!
Love, Diana
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I know your worries all too well. As an introvert it used to add to my already plentyful worries around people that I felt I _must_ be more friendly and outgoing.
Lately I'm much more relaxed about it all. I think if you don't feel the need of huge groups of friends hanging out with you (who at critical times might turn out to be everything but...), then don't force yourself. Enjoy what your heart tells you to enjoy, don't worry about anything else! :)
i can relate so much to this post... and i know that where you are emotionally/mentally sucks a whole lot more than you're letting on. sending lots of love your way, and strength and patience, too.
you and i are both introverts, maybe, but we've got a whole world of friends through the internet. you're blessed, supported, and loved ~ don't forget!
<3
ingrid
oh goodness, you've reminded me why I left my previous job. I hate the feeling of being at work and NEEDING to escape, it' awful to feel so pent up. I hope you start to feel better soon, sometimes going somewhere alone is the best remedy.
Sometimes a girl just needs to say "f**k the world, I'm wearing leggings as pants today"
Ahhh! I am so with you! I currently have a corporate HR job and the only thing that gets me through the day is know it is just a means to an end and I won't be doing this for the rest of my life. Hang in there!!!
-Tara
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I didn't notice your booty in the mirror until you pointed it out. Thank you for cracking me up on a boring day at work!
Beluga Point is one of my favorite places on Earth! I literally dream of it.
The trip is almost here and the j-o-b will be a distant memory. Hang in there!
amazing scarf :))
I love your pictures <3
love.
Etinology
Leggings will always be the first thing I pick for days where I just want to feel really comfortable. I love your hair, and your blog in general!
Wednesday is a very good day indeed.
:P
I know how you feel about getting tense after 10 hours working.. i feel the same.. the drive home from work (which takes an hour!) with the radio turned up loud usually works for me.. how do u find time to blog when you work so much? im finding it really tough!
ps leggings rock!! :) xo
i've been wearing mine all day. just got to chill out and i even watched pride and predjudice twice! stay enouraged sweet thang :))
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I understand what it's like to need alone time. And I also get the senioritis of sorts that's plaguing you at the moment! I had the same thing in the month or so leading up to my move to Oregon. Its sucks, but you'll get through! High-five! And such. :)
As long as your shirt covers your butt, leggings are a good alternative to pants. Most people don't sem do understand that.
I completely relate to this post - yesterday I went to work, picked up groceries, and just couldn't go home until I relaxed. I drove around and around listening to music and decompressing while all my frozen crap melted. Ah, well. You look beautiful, by the way. Hang in there, the end is near!
I LOVE leggings. I've been wearing my black leggings and my jeggings so often lately! They are just so comfy.
It is Wednesday! Almost Thursday now. The week is almost over. Hold on, and keep wearing leggings as pants. We will never know. :)
Elizabeth! I know exactly what you mean. After I got out of school, the same exact thing happened to me, I started doing my own thing and figuring out my life while slowly hanging out with less and less people and realized I had become a hermit! When I DID go out, I felt like I was so socially out of practice! I think these things go in phases, a little more than 2 years later, I'm slowly transitioning into a different place in my life and finding more like-minded people around me here and there... Either way, I know exactly what your talking about, I'm kind of glad I'm not the only one. life is crazy!
love love!
Kristen
that is beautiful.
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keep your chin up! your so lucky that you have something to look forward to being out on the road and all, I know what you mean about being stuck in a job you loath, I wake up feeling sick to my stomach dreading the day, but I put in my 2 weeks notice last week so I'm feeling a little better still its hard, and I still have to find some gainful employment
i know exactly how you feel. i head off to the usa on my year abroad in 3 weeks and while i'm completely nervous and feel completely unprepared, I just feel so stuck in limbo. I spent my days working at my crappy part time job, but then on my days off I just feel down and completely un-motivated despite a to-do list as long as my arm!!
I also know how you feel about making friends. I'm pretty extroverted most of the time, well, around people that I know. But i find it really hard to make new friends. Talking to strangers just makes me uncomfortable. I'm an only child so I do like being alone.
I'm worried about getting to America and making no friends!!
Charlotte xxx
Wow your hair so so so cute
ugh i am dreading going back to midterms and exams! good luck with them - you are lovely :) great blog!!
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It seems as though this is a place that a lot of people are in right now, self included. For the past 2 weeks, I've had very little time around my friends and have been working and stressing out more than ever - all because I'm going on vacation in a couple of days. I guess the upside is, by the time vacations come, we'll appreciate them all the more!
I've been through the same sort of thing lately, in fact I couldn't believe when I read that after 10 hours at a job that you hate you skipped home to escape...it was like reading my own diary! Glad to know I'm not the only one who is part hermit!!!
I hope things look for you soon, like perhaps a new job opportunity, or even a new friend :)? All the best darling xoxo
Leggings really are the coziest thing ever! I pretty much live in mine too. Your hair looks amazing in these photos btw. I'm having major hair-envy right now. ;)
Just about every sentence you wrote here I was nodding and thinking "oh snap." Slightly different contexts and what not, but I like the way you are able to articulate how I feel, and on your blog no less! Okay well I hope you are able to find something about your job that you can focus on as a 'plus' while you wait out the beginning of your brave trip. And I don't know what I'd do without leggings on days where I know I'll be at my desk allllllll day.
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