the salt and swell of the ocean


I'm boycotting the outdoors right now. It's snowing. It's not just snowing, it's blizzarding. I'm quite annoyed. It's April! I know I'm in Alaska and all, but this is just ridiculous. Thus, I am posting my last outfit from Hawaii instead of looking outside my window at the snow accumulating. I'm not looking forward to scraping snow off my car. I thought I wouldn't have to do that for six months!  28 degrees is unacceptable.

These pictures were taken at the Shops at Wailea when my mom and I went shopping. It's so crazy going into those super luxe stores like Gucci, Bottega Veneta and Louis Vuitton. $300 for sunglasses! $2,000 for a purse! It almost seems like a zoo. You go in to look at the clothes and accessories behind the glass, like zoo animals. I got this adorable bird ring at BCBG. Luckily it fit under my $30 limit, and was probably the only thing there that did. It's a little big on me so I've been scheming ways to make it more snug.


dress/vintage :: ring/bcbg maxazria :: purse/vintage
necklace/shop in Kihei :: sandals/target


I was listening to the radio this morning and The Who and The Doors played, and it just made my heart ache.  It's not even that I'm heartbroken anymore, it's more like a physiological response that's unconscious.  Certain music is just so strongly associated with James that even though I'm not constantly heartbroken anymore, those songs and bands are still kind of unbearable to listen to.  Bummer since it's a lot of my favorite music.  I just find it so strange that some things can be so strong psychologically that it results in a physiological response.  Perhaps this wouldn't be so fascinating if I were a psychologist.  Or perhaps more fascinating?

Do you ever feel like your life is a puzzle and the current puzzle piece is kind of squished into a spot it doesn't belong in? Like, it's close enough that it fits, but it's not the right piece. That's kind of how I feel right now. It's not like anything is particularly wrong, and it's not like I'm going to get the rest of the puzzle wrong, but I can't find the right piece yet and this one is jammed in that spot until I find that right piece. For some reason I can't get this puzzle analogy out of my head. It's not that troublesome, just kind of an unconscious uncomfortableness that is ever-present, like ill fitting clothing.


P.S. I never thought the word "particulate" could be sexy until I heard it come out of Jack Hodgins' mouth.
P.P.S. I've been on a Bones bender since the weekend...can you tell?  Instant Netflix has ruined my social life.  Oh wait, I didn't have one.
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tess said...

that dress is adorable

cannot believe you're getting snow, it is an unbearable 90 here in DC!

Morgan said...

I completely understand what you're saying about the puzzle. I don't think people give enough credit to the 20 somethings out there. There is so much moving and shifting going on in our lives and yet everything around seems to be telling us -we're supposed to have it figured out already-. Don't worry most people don't, I certainly don't. They're either really good at pretending or they're really good at denial. Now throw out that nasty uncooperative puzzle piece and start looking for a new one!
And I just happen to think that this dress-http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=42039354 - would look darling on you with your new hair color.
Morgan
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Erin said...

when i need to make rings more snug (which is always) i wrap a bit of thread around the band in a color that matches the ring. they also sell plastic ring "sizers", but i think the thread is less noticeable.
Also, I love Bones too, I watch the episodes on hulu all the time!

Kate @ Earth vs. The Wild Heart said...

:( I'm sorry to hear The Who make you sad.

Out of Order said...

ooh that outfit is so cute, and the ring - *wordless big smile*

I also can completely relate to feeling stuck out of place, like something is tickling your subconcious but you can't bring it to the surface to deal with it. To me, I feel like I'm always out of time, in the wrong time, too late, etc. etc. They say time heals everything but to me it just brings more stuff to wound you sometimes!

Best wishes to staying warm and content in life's blizzards!

fashionforwriters.com said...

What a wonderful analogy and I can visualize it perfectly. I know what you mean about music--I had one extra sad break up a few years ago and there was so much music I couldn't listen to--like all of the Velvet Underground--which only made me sadder! But once you are able to listen to the music that reminds you of your ex again, it'll feel all the sweeter and all the more layered than it once did.

And as for the ring--my grandmother always wraps a little bit of thread around the back of the ring as a temporary solution. It works great! except you have a bit of thread wrapped around the back of your ring, but it doesn't really show unless you spend a lot of time putting your hands up in the air with your palms facing others!

xo Jenny

Liz said...

You're so adorable you know that? Also, I know just what you mean about not being able to listen to certain songs|musicians. To this day I can't listen to any Postal Service or Coldplay--and I'm madly in love with my current love of my life. It's just something that will always coincide with that other person and our time with them. Jerks. lol.

♥Lola said...

Love the ring! I know what you mean, there are certain songs that I just cannot listen to after having troubles in my life :( But after awhile you might associate them with something nicer?

Justice Pirate said...

i love this dress on you. I miss your hair this colour. I'm so sorry it is snowing for you. ugh. that is really annoying while it is getting hot out for everyone else.

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OooKellyNicky said...

Cute dress. Love the necklace. You look very 50's!

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Shauna said...

i really like your dress!
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Sidewalk Chalk said...

Orange looks so great on you -- this dress is gorgeous. These photos are making me nostalgic for Hawaii-- I went there for my honeymoon last year.

Amanda said...

Your dress is so gorgeous! Perfect for Hawaii.

I know how you feel about that whole subconscious thing. My first love of many years back and I had "our song" and even though I've totally moved on...I still subconsciously just change the radio when I hear it. You give a little bit of yourself to someone when you fall in love, and I think that little piece will always do those kinds of things without you knowing.

Meisha Marie said...

I love the whole puzzle thing. That is exactly how I am feeling right now... It's no fun.

AndiPants said...

Beautiful dress!

I definitely feel you on the weather thing. We've been having horrible wind on top of the usual heavy rain so I haven't been able to wear any of my full skirted spring dresses.

Sweet Mess. said...

Lovely dress, & I hope the weather gets better over there. I honestly cannot bear the near 100 degree weather in NY right now though.

Lemondrop Marie said...

What a gorgeous dress, the cut and color are so sweetly vintage summer.

Marie @ Lemondrop ViNtAge

Rachael said...

I always enjoy your blog but this one is particularly insightful. I'm totally feeling the puzzle-ness as well as not being able to listen to certain music that reminds me of people who recently became part of my past.

Belle said...

You could try a small band-aid around the finger you wear your ring on. Might work.
Beautiful dress.
Belle

Lexie said...

i love the subtle mixed patterns on your dress! so cute.

i appreciate your honest thought about your life not feeling quite right -- i think people who have blogs tend to only show the good and just edit out the parts that aren't quite right. i think it's perfectly normal to feel conflicted/unsettled at this point in your life ... just work on taking things one day at a time.

Ollie Otson said...

Bones is an amazing show. Quite addicting, as well.

I love the ring. Sorry about all the snow.

SWF_Terra said...

These pictures are lovely. And I adore that ring.

Jenni said...

i am in love with this dress. It's so fantastic.

I completely get what you mean about the physiological response to songs. To this day if I hear the song "Why don't you and i" by carlos santana or that crappy hoobastank song "the reason" I get really tense and kind of fell like a deer in head lights not sure which way to run. And the relationship I associate with those songs was nearly 6 years ago. At one point this was so bad that I could tell those songs by the first note when they used to play on the radio and i would dive from back seats to change the station. Some relationships leave pretty big wounds...

And I'm sending good weather thoughts your way!

r0zz said...

i hate it when music can do that to you. i used to hang out with this guy that i had liked a lot and we were both REALLY into the beatles till he totally stabbed me in the back and so now i feel like all my fav beatles songs are tainted... why?!!? T^T

BARGAIN BEX said...

Ok. Number One: I feel ya with the whole puzzle piece thing, in fact, I'm right there with ya and Number Two: I don't think I've ever seen anything more adorable in my whole life than the little bird perched on your finger ...

Becca Jane said...

You look lovely in that dress!

Cadie said...

I really love your ring and I can 100% agree with a lot of what you are saying in this post. I associate a lot of things that aren't just songs or bands to my ex (we dated for 4 years) and you're right, it can sometimes still be unbearable and there's often no warning to what might set off those feelings. I constantly feel as if my puzzle piece doesn't fit but what I have really been trying to tell myself is that I have to keep hoping that I will find that place where it feels like I do fit. I hope that you keep hoping too.

Jessica said...

Love the ring! As far as making it snugger...my mom once bought some kind of teeny plastic thing that wrapped around the back of rings so they'd fir better...hard to describe...

I know what you mean when it comes to music. You know how they say scent is the strongest sense tied to memory? Sometimes I swear they're wrong on that one and it's gotta be hearing. A certain song or certain bands always take me right back to the time in my life when I listened to them the most - whether that memory is good or bad.

kate maggie said...

I know exactly what you mean! I pray that you find that puzzle peice you are looking for..and I can relate fully with music - there are some songs I still cant listen to because they just have ties from my past. Horrible I say! On a happier note though, you look seriously amazing in this dress. So summery and pretty! I really love it on you, perfect color! x

xoaria said...

Ah, the orange-red of the dress makes you look stunning!

I'm very sorry to hear about your favorite music - while I'm still vaguely inexperienced to say I'm heartbroken, someone very close to me once decided we should part ways and now I can't listen to my favorite songs at the time because they just sorely remind me of him too. It's been a good three years and I still get a little achey as well. I hope you'll be able to enjoy them again soon~.

Sal said...

I love your dress!! Orange is my most favourite colour in the whole wide world!

A.D said...

I love that ring!

Anonymous said...

I understand completely! My puzzle is missing some pieces right now, and some of the pieces are just all wrong. But it's difficult to find the right puzzle piece when the wrong one is still stuck in there.

Kim Humes said...

I hear you about the puzzle piece too, I feel the same way. Don't worry though, you just need to keep moving the pieces around and eventually one will fit in the right spot! And it will feel great when that happens! I'm slowly learning that life is all about moving the pieces around and not so much about the finished puzzle. Hang in there! *hug*

Hailey said...

Oh dude, my friend is going to lend me her box set from season 5 gilmore girls. I have spring break next week which means gilmore girls will beat out social life everytime.

Nadia Kamballa said...

What a pretty dress!!

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Laura said...

Love that dress and ring! We're getting cheated of warm weather here in Michigan, too. I hope it warms up in Alaska soon!

I know what you mean about hearing certain songs and having it all come back. I don't miss my ex at all (I feel like I really became myself once we broke up) but there are some songs that I feel really weird listening to, because it is so strongly associated with that (awful, really) time in my life. I can only hope that one day that music becomes "normal" for you and me both!

- Laura, owleyesblog.blogspot.com

Jenni said...

Oh no! Snow is the worst! For what it's worth, I love your outfit. The dress and jewelry are insanely adorable. :D

Camilla said...

that ring is so cute x
Camilla

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Mousevox Vintage said...

That is one seriously cute dress.

Whenever I'm in Chicago and I walk down the Magnificent Mile, I feel the same way.

Raquel said...

you look so pretty and I adore your ring!
hope the weather gets better there.
x

Damsels said...

thats a beautiful dress ive never seen you looks more pretty!

Maria Confer said...

Your dress and ring are awesome.

It's not snowing here, but it's too cold today!

Lulu Letty

CupcakeSniper said...

i love that dress!!

Lens Based Fiction said...

Such a stunning dress :D

Sara Lynn said...

oh you look so sweet in this pic! I love the bird ring :)

I feel the same way about certain songs, it brings so much back, I still cannot listen to a few Metallica songs, and I really love them. :(

Oh and takl about sexy, when i watch DVD's of the X-files, everything David Duchovny says is sexy.

Dalena Vintage said...

I love the details in the dress, the variety in polka dots and polka dot like things (ie. the buttons) I can't believe the crazy weather! I would probably be getting lost in warm vacation photos too if I were you.

rinacatastrophe said...

I love that bird ring, so adorable! Sorry about your snow situation :/

-Rina
www.thelastestoughs.blogspot.com

Jennifer said...

I love your pictures from Hawaii. You look like Zooey Deschanel!

Hope your weather gets better soon! It snowed here on Tuesday, and it's 50 degrees today... Utah weather is bizarre!


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Neekoh said...

I think that dress is adorable on you!

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Orchid Grey said...

oh my goodness, i can't believe you're getting snow! It's not unheard of for the same to happe in Norther New England, but it sucks just the same, I hope it melts soon!

There is a lot of music i can no longer really listen to with out being flooded by bad memories- the weakerthans are totally ruined for me (eh, I'm over them anyway), but also songs that have some of the best memories attached. ps- your hair looks awesome, i love it!

Brow Raised Beauty said...

This look is just incredibly vintage classic! Love the color and your hair brings it all into the present day;)
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Lisa said...

that dress is adorable..sorry to hear it freezing where you live. It is so ridiculous how much most designer clothing is..it is not worth it on my opinion even if I had the money.

maritaBliss said...

Aaaw, that dress is so cute on you ♥

crowdedcloset said...

you remind of the cutest strawberry shortcake here!

LOVE the ring girl! xo, Kim www.crowded-closet.com

Ruxandra said...

Adorable dress:)I like the simplicity of this outfit...well, hope sun will shine soon and you will get your well deserved spring weather.happy weekend!

Manja said...

I am loving your dress and that ring is super adorable!

Alli XT said...

I love Bones - it is such a guilty pleasure. If you're just getting into the show you have to watch the latest episode on Hulu - it's a peek at what happened when Bones and Booth first met. I usually don't get emotional about tv but I was squealing at the monitor as I watched.

Anonymous said...

Hey, I just wanted to say, that I really think you have to move on. It seems to me you are living your life in the past. He is gone, try to except it. There is somebody just right for you. Sometimes when we cannot let go of a person, it has much more to do with us fearing ourselves. But only if we lose our fears, we can create the love it needs. The future is bright. Go for it.

Bardot In Blue said...

adorable look! that ring is really really special...

xoxo Bardot in Blue